Expectations N' Disappointments

If there's one thing that I keep forgetting

(despite the many gazillion things that I forget :P)

is to be thankful.

Years of trying to understand myself & events & comments by people who have known me all my life have all shed light on the perfectionist part of me.

I put high expectations on things, on relationships, unfortunately on my loved ones but worst of all, on myself.

I can confidently say though that I'm changing when it comes to the prior three things mentioned but not on the last one - myself.

*boohoo* :P

And the first time I heard of the phrase,
"To be happy, expect less in life.", I found it utterly ridiculous! Why man! That's pathetic! Obviously aim for the best?!

But disappointment after disappointment sure changed that mindset of mine. Expect much, disappointed much. That is so true.

My pastor once said, " People will always disappoint you."
I find this true-er & true-er each day.

Ahh....the keyword really is to be thankful in everything.
"Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." 1 Thessalonians 5:18
I think if I were to just take 5 minutes at the end of each day to thank God for what He has done, I'll have a long list by the end of the week of things that He's blessed me with. :)

Dear God, I'm really vely sorry for times when I've been hard to please. Let me see the things and the people you've blessed me with and the breakthroughs you've given me.
"Every good and perfect gift is from above" James 1 : 17
I'm tired of expecting so much of myself, I'm tired of being disappointed with myself, I'm tired of trying to prove myself to others and 'failing' at the end of the day just because I did not perform according to what I expected of myself to perform.

*ENOUGH IS ENOUGGGGGHH!!!*
rawwrrrr!!!

As I fill my heart with thanksgiving, I know that you'll in turn shower me with your peace and joy overflowing. :)

And when thoughts come in on the many ways that I've disappointed myself today, please remind me that you're a compassionate God and always abounding in love. And that I'm a work in progress. :)

God, I want to thank You for today.
:)
To be able to wake up in the morning and to be able to love and be loved for another day is truly a gift itself.

Renew my mind & let my confidence and hope be in You and not myself.
"That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:10
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9

Such assurance!!
:)

Thank You God for Your promises! :)

And now for some pictures for ze blog!
:D


Cute or not cute or not?
Aku buat punya!!! And it's still lying peacefully in me fridge.
*muahahahhaa*

SS moments are necessary once in a while don't cha think?
;P

God will make a way when there seems to be no way.