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Your will, not mine be done

2011-12-12T16:08:00.005+08:00

"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you." Matthew 6 : 33

I believe Your promises with all my heart.

:) :D >< xD :DD ^^ \o/ (:

Cos I can count on You (:

2011-09-28T01:06:00.004+08:00

Desires, hopes, dreams, disappointments, weaknesses, failures, inadequacies, mistakes, struggles, I place them at Your feet..

and trust.

And you remind me that the act of surrender is a continuous process.

Food-filled-thoughts

2011-08-29T19:05:00.003+08:00

When i wake up,

When i'm eating (!),

When i'm walking,

(And especially) when i'm in class &

When i go to bed,

In the morning,

At noon,

At night,

All day...

I just keep thinking of food! and googling for recipes and thinking of food and googling for recipes and thinking of food!

This has to stop!

By the way, should I prepare hoisin glazed turkey legs tomorrow or roast turkey legs rubbed in curry paste?

;)

Get what I mean? D:

Matters of the heart, who can understand?

2011-08-02T13:16:00.010+08:00

Proverbs 4 : 23 Above all else, guard your heart,
for everything you do flows from it.

Was on a roller coaster ride of emotions for a good first half of the year and it's not cool,

but it's a good reminder to be ever more careful to guard the heart and mind.

But a note to you men out there, PLS FOR GOODNESS SAKE give thought to how you are treating a girl, single dates and asking a girl exclusively out for movie send out the wrong message! If you do not have genuine and serious interest in the girl, then those are big NO-NO's! And if you are used to hanging out with a girl, then really, it's OK to be honest with your intentions.

By saying, " I hope you don't get this in a wrong way" might save a future heartbreak.

I for one appreciate honesty more than a tub of 'kao!' green tea ice cream! GREEN TEA ICE CREAM! Nothing but my mom's cooking beats that!

So yes, please and thank you!

You make all things new & I will follow You forward.
FORWARD WE MARCH! :)
Picking up the pieces, placing them in Your hands.

2011-06-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

Truly You're good. And You work in ways we cannot see!

I needed to know the truth, and though it isn't what I hoped it'll be, the heart's at peace and filled with joy unspeakable.

I don't understand why. But only You can, only You can. :)

I shouldn't be blogging now. I've got chapters to read!
Final paper in a few hour's time.The final battle - oh Lord grant me victory! :)

2011-05-16T22:15:00.006+08:00

What do you do if you really like a person? If you really admire and respect his attributes and his character? And what do you do if you're worried of how he might perceive you because each time when you're around him, you seem to turn into this timid lil mouse, passive and quiet. What do you do when your usual self which delights in having joyful conversations at a total at ease state just seem to dissipate into thin air when he's in the room? What do you do if you wonder if all these feelings that you feel are for real? What do you do if he takes up so much of your thoughts and the sight of him just makes you smile? And what do you do if you think you might have a chance at this and yet the truth is, he might be thinking of someone else? Would you think, "Why would a guy like him like a girl like me? " At more optimistic times, would you think hey maybe this is it, God's granting the desires of your heart..But at some other times, would you think that maybe you've got it all wrong; From point 1, he just wanted to be friends and you've been a fool. What would you do when you realise that thinking about it and analysing things will not help you find an answer? What would you do when you're trying to let go but you can't? What would you do when you want to have a good solid friendship with him but sometimes you're even too afraid to approach him? You pray for him often because you care and you pray that God will grant him the desires of his heart, even if you're not a part of it. You're thankful enough if you're able to love him even if it is not as someone special but as a sister in Christ and as a friend.

What would you do?
You seek the Lord, you surrender, and you pray.
And regardless of the outcome, put your hope in God, not anywhere else.:)

I need Your strength Lord. I really do.

2011-04-25T16:50:00.005+08:00

Today has been torturingly boring. I can't stand boredom and having no plans for the day, it just drives me crazy. And an idle mind is like the perfect breeding ground for nonsensical thoughts. grrraaggghhhuuurrrgggggghhhhhhhh. ok now that the frustration due to the uneventful day has been let out, now to the main point of the post.

Been replaying I see grace for a number of times now, and the verse "I see you pierced, WOUNDED FOR ME.." just keeps playing in my mind. Jesus was wounded for us, physically and I'm sure it's emotionally too 'cos He loves us so much and yet so many turn away from him and reject His love. It just makes me think..are we willing to get ourselves wounded for someone else? And I'm talking not about a physical wound.

I believe that one of the reasons why I sometimes fail to love is because I'm afraid to be wounded. I don't wanna get hurt because it dang hurts. (;P) To open up to someone else is to let yourself be vulnerable. To be yourself involves putting yourself out there, all that you've got, vulnerable to judments, criticisms and dislikes. But at the same time, it can also invite love, genuine care and connection, praises and bonds/friendships which brings so much joy to a person's life. Take the good and leave the bad, who wouldn't want that eh? :) But no, it comes in a package. I have loads more to learn. When Jesus told us to love our enemies and to love those who mistreat us, I believe that it's hard to be done without getting a wound or two in the process of loving them. But that shouldn't stop us from loving and that shouldn't make us start practising the mirror personality instead where we only love those who loves us.

So let's get wounded together? ;P (And of course not deliberately getting yourself hurt 'cos that is just sheer foolishness) And not stop loving. 'Cos love can take wounds. 'Cos love is amazing like that - love covers over a multitude of sins.

And though I'll never be able to love like Jesus, God remove my fears and give me the strength to try.

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. 1 Peter 4 : 8

"If I could have just one thing to say, I would tell you: "don't be afraid to love". -unknown.

“Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all you who hope in the Lord.” Psalm 31 : 24

the joy of the Lord is me strength! :DDD

Gung Gung :,)

2011-04-15T01:19:00.005+08:00

Dad has never seen him cried before. Ever. He was a man of pride, always appearing strong and immovable.

But today, during the usual short visit I pay him whenever I get a chance to come back to Ipoh;

*in cantonese*

Me : Gung gung, I'll be going to Australia in July. (just randomly and casually mentioning)

*his facial expression changed..So i quickly added in..*

Me : Only for a year. After that I'll be back. :))

Grandpa : OK.

*he kept silent*

And the next few seconds, ego and pride seemed to take the backseat as tears just flowed from his eyes. He couldn't hold them in, I knew he tried.

I was stunned.

I knew he loved me A LOT but I didn't know I meant that much to him.

But I'm glad I do now, and that will be an image of him I will never forget.

Low clarity

2011-04-12T00:30:00.004+08:00

Since it's been awhile since i updated, here goes :)

A friend just asked me, imagine that you're a guy and you like a girl, how would you know if she likes you or not?

My answer might have been a lil biased but for me it's simple, just ask her mai know lor!

Stop playing the guessing game! Just ask, settled!

The girl might actually have feelings for you also but she's also guessing and she's also afraid to show it.

I sure hope it helped that fella. x)

**********

But it'll be amazing eh if life can just always be clear with no ambiguities? But then again, if that happens, men would be clear about everything and with no ambiguities means no wondering, no getting lost, no waiting, no doubting, no exploring, no risk taking, no dilemmas...will men ever find a need to seek God?

Ok, so no ambiguities is a bad idea! :P

**********

I'll live with it and I'll keep trusting, through the fog and through the storm.

Cos I know that..

At the end, You make all things beautiful.

I will not fret.

Expectations N' Disappointments

2011-03-21T00:57:00.003+08:00

If there's one thing that I keep forgetting

(despite the many gazillion things that I forget :P)

is to be thankful.

Years of trying to understand myself & events & comments by people who have known me all my life have all shed light on the perfectionist part of me.

I put high expectations on things, on relationships, unfortunately on my loved ones but worst of all, on myself.

I can confidently say though that I'm changing when it comes to the prior three things mentioned but not on the last one - myself.

*boohoo* :P

And the first time I heard of the phrase,
"To be happy, expect less in life.", I found it utterly ridiculous! Why man! That's pathetic! Obviously aim for the best?!

But disappointment after disappointment sure changed that mindset of mine. Expect much, disappointed much. That is so true.

My pastor once said, " People will always disappoint you."
I find this true-er & true-er each day.

Ahh....the keyword really is to be thankful in everything.
"Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." 1 Thessalonians 5:18
I think if I were to just take 5 minutes at the end of each day to thank God for what He has done, I'll have a long list by the end of the week of things that He's blessed me with. :)

Dear God, I'm really vely sorry for times when I've been hard to please. Let me see the things and the people you've blessed me with and the breakthroughs you've given me.
"Every good and perfect gift is from above" James 1 : 17
I'm tired of expecting so much of myself, I'm tired of being disappointed with myself, I'm tired of trying to prove myself to others and 'failing' at the end of the day just because I did not perform according to what I expected of myself to perform.

*ENOUGH IS ENOUGGGGGHH!!!*
rawwrrrr!!!

As I fill my heart with thanksgiving, I know that you'll in turn shower me with your peace and joy overflowing. :)

And when thoughts come in on the many ways that I've disappointed myself today, please remind me that you're a compassionate God and always abounding in love. And that I'm a work in progress. :)

God, I want to thank You for today.
:)
To be able to wake up in the morning and to be able to love and be loved for another day is truly a gift itself.

Renew my mind & let my confidence and hope be in You and not myself.
"That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:10
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9

Such assurance!!
:)

Thank You God for Your promises! :)

And now for some pictures for ze blog!
:D

Cute or not cute or not?
Aku buat punya!!! And it's still lying peacefully in me fridge.
*muahahahhaa*

SS moments are necessary once in a while don't cha think?
;P

God will make a way when there seems to be no way.

Comfort in chaos

2011-03-15T23:56:00.002+08:00

Why so troubled you lil heart?

Oh you of lil faith..

"Be still, and know that I am God.."
Psalms 46: 10

Give me grace to look beyond the here and now.:)

Cool Stuffs B)

2011-02-22T23:50:00.002+08:00

Waiting on God

"To wait is not merely to remain impassive. It is to expect--to look for with patience, and also with submission. It is to long for, but not impatiently; to look for, but not to fret at the delay; to watch for, but not restlessly; to feel that if he does not come, we will acquiesce, and yet to refuse to let the mind acquiesce in the feeling that he will not come." - Dr. A.B. Davidson, Waiting on God (quoted in The Hidden Life of Prayer by David McIntyre)

New semester, here I comee!!
Hear my battle cryy!!
RAWR Imma soldier of God! :D

Ironic don't cha think?

2011-02-10T23:53:00.005+08:00

We all grow up having listened to the phrase, "Follow your heart." and what more with Disney emphasising it and making kids and adults alike feel like that's the best way to live your life - to just do it, just do what your heart tells you to.

But let me tell you, the heart (let's just be honest) isn't always filled with desires to do all things noble and all things nice. In fact, all the more I learn about myself and the desires of my heart, the more ashamed I am of it, of how deceitful and of how selfish it can be. It's always a constant battle with the spirit.

Follow your heart and all its desires? Most of the time, people'll end up having to pay for the consequences of rash actions.

"The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?" Jeremiah 17:9

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." Proverbs 4:23

Purify my heart Oh Lord.

TOTD

2011-01-27T02:34:00.008+08:00

Is it possible to love someone without liking the person?

And no, I'm not talking about the BGR (boy girl relationship) kind of love.

have a nice day! :)

what doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Dieu est bon

2011-01-20T01:26:00.003+08:00

A most unlikely song that I got hooked to! And I just found out that the title of the song, Le Festin actually means My Dinner. o.O bwahah!

Think a day in France, popping into any random cafe whenever you feel like it, get cream whiskers from your ice cream, snap pictures like a typical tourist and just stroll and stroll till you and your mate look eye to eye and the light bulb lits for destination number 2!

*snaps out*

Oh it must be the song...Entering dreamland for real now! ;) Time to snooze! *Yawns*

Bonsoir!

“When we have committed a desire to Christ, the desire does not necessarily fade, but it no longer dominates.”

2011 - Post #No.1

2011-01-09T16:54:00.003+08:00

Thinking back of life's journey last year and what lies ahead in this year (of my favourite number - 11! :P ), it's easy to get burried in the many uncertainties that fills my mind. Despite the excitement, fear creeps in too. And don't even talk about the major move in July, even the thought as to whether or not I'll be able to live each day and make it count seems like a challenge to me. Do you sometimes feel like you have a high tendency of screwing things up and that you really don't want to screw something good up and you're afraid to act 'cos you're afraid that whatever action you take might actually just screw things up? Haha if you even get what I'm trying to say :p, that's what I feel sometimes. Louzy thoughts I know..gotta dump them in the trash can! I just want to walk in faith , believing that all His plans for me are good and living each day in thanksgiving with His joy as my strength. God, increase my faith in You!

On another note, the second weekend of the month was good! (Much needed ) Jogging and breakfast session with the college mates in the morn, church in the evening, a great time of laughter, praise and worship with the lovely friend & the guitar at night and a Sunday well spent with the ex-college mates. Ahhh....and now, time to get some work done (hopefully) !

So much to learn, so much to change.

Where would I be without You. :)

You Keep Givin' Me

2010-12-31T18:56:00.003+08:00

And walking in His presence,

I know that next year, there's just going to be more good things awaiting me.

As much as I don't deserve it, You keep giving.

Oh God, You're good and You're love.

Thank You!

Snapping out of it as of NOW!

2010-12-09T11:27:00.007+08:00

It's the familiar feelings.
What do I do with them?
The heart deceives. And follow it I shall not.
I shall hold on to Your promises.

Continue to teach me to love unconditionally.

Regardless of anything and everything, I know I'm in good hands. :)

Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart
Psalm 37:4
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:6-7

You have my heart completely.

My share of bad days with a smiley (:

2010-11-23T19:20:00.005+08:00

Not exactly a great note to start a post with after so long. Results were very disappointing. And the worse thing's that I thought I did well. I don't understand what went wrong. Whenever I got poor results in the past, I anticipated them but definitely not this one.

Each time I feel angry/disappointed/sad, I ask God, what do You want me to learn from this?

Is it to learn to deal with disappointments in life? Things will not always turn out how you want them to be.

Or is it all these while I have thought that nahh pfffttt results don't affect me, they are just results lar, there are so many more important things in life that I treasure like His kingdom and my relationships with people. I always thought, 'Gahh even if results are sucky, I'd be totally fine lar.' Haha but honestly, ermm i'm not that fine with it now that it really happened. ;D Felt so blue whole morning & I called friends all morning to rant. They were all really awesome lar, they pretty much mourned with me :)

Or maybe I should learn not to complain too much? Looking back, I was complaining like mad about how ridiculous the lecturer and the exam format was; of how impossible it is she made it to score. So yeah I should stop being a complaint machine.

The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit. Proverbs 18:21

Hmm...something to ponder on, I think we all take this verse a tad too likely. ;)

Or is it overconfidence?

Oh God, if they really did make a mistake with the results, please help them to notice and rectify it; But if it's really because of my shortcomings, then help me accept it humbly and well, learn something out of it and improve next time. ;)

In everything, I am going to give thanks. :)

Assuredly Yours

2010-10-06T00:54:00.002+08:00

Just to be by Your side,
There is hope in my life,

There is no greater freedom I'll find.
<3

Buzz Buzzz

2010-08-18T00:45:00.004+08:00

I've got a love-hate relationship with being busy.

I can't recall much or remember what happened each day for the pass few weeks 'cos they seemed to have swooshed by.
Busy busy busy.
But I've been equally busy with enjoying life and having fun as well..

And there are a few interesting events I want to share about! :)
More in the next post!
'Cos now ima go get me beauty sleeeep.
:)
Have a great week!

My heart, Your home.

He encourages..

2010-08-12T22:03:00.006+08:00

IF ONLY YOU CAN SEE WHAT I SEE YOU'RE CAPABLE OF DOING, THEN THAT'LL BE GREAT.

Heart warming, yes! :)

What's God speaking to you today?
:)

Mind Check 1 2 3

2010-08-11T00:01:00.010+08:00

Although it's a very thin line between loving oneself and being self-centered/selfish, they are not the same and I sometimes tend to mix 'em up unrealisingly.

Peeps!
Love yourself.
God made you you. So you don't have to be like someone else.

I sometimes feel like I'm my biggest critic.
& I feel like I sometimes hate the way I am.

Sometimes.

Do you?

I gotta put a STOP to these thoughts.

Let's all put a STOP to these ~~thoughts~~ lies.
:)

You put a new song in my mouth
:)

I'm Back! ;D

2010-07-26T01:23:00.007+08:00

And the reason's simple:

I miss blogging!! very very much. :)

Btw,
some of my friends said that they're borrreeed of that brangelina's pict which have been the first thing that they see each time they visit me blog for 3 months. My apologies. Here here, how about a pict of Irene Chin for a change? :P

Struggles.Endurance.Trust.Faith.Victory.
"Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heaven-ward in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:3

God, thank You for this awesomee day!! :)

Skin Deep

2010-04-24T10:35:00.007+08:00

This is what Hollywood tells you ~~love~~ *open inverted comma* love *close inverted comma* is...

Angelina Jolie calls Brad Pitt a 'train wreck'; wants him to get a facelift

Apparently, contrary to popular belief, Angelina Jolie doesn't like Brad Pitt's beard as well. An insider told The Enquirer that Angie has told Brad that he needs to undergo major plastic surgery if he wants their romance to last -because she sees him more like a brother than a lover these days!

"She told him he just isn't the same handsome man she fell in love with, and that he needed to do something extreme," said the source. "The sad truth is, Brad looks like a pale shadow of his former self. His skin is in terrible condition, and he's grown this ridiculous beard to try to cover up how bad he looks underneath."

And how did Brad take it? The source said that he was offended at first, but he agreed to have a facelift if that is what it will take to revive their relationship because "he still loves Angie and can't stand the idea of her not being into him physically anymore."

msn.entertainment

Pfftt...the whole idea of love itself is distorted. Since when love is all about what you feel about the other and about how their good looks make you feel good. I'm not taken aback by this 'cos no surprise, this is the perception of love that the world has always lived with. The definition of lust, infatuation and sexual attraction is now being used as the definition of love. How much value does the word 'love' carry these days? People, attraction ain't love 'cos to say that would be majormajormajorly degrading. And I guess marriage vows these days should include..for thinner for fatter, for smoother for wrinkler. Oh wait, Brad & Angelina aren't even married. =/
And ps: gurls/guys, if your other half can accept you only when you're looking good, heck he/she doesn't love you. let the truth sink in and save yourself a future heartbreak.

This is what God tells us love is;

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
1 Corinthians 13

"The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."
1 Samuel 16 : 7

:)

2010-04-22T13:36:00.003+08:00

Have ye an awesome day!
:)

Hmm..I feel like going for an evening jog today. x) Hopefully it doesn't pour. One last paper to go tomorrow. Another semester coming to an end. So fast. A part of me wishes that it wouldn't end and that time would just slow down. And yet another part of me is all excited about what the tomorrows hold.

And yesterday, I was worrying about how to fill up my two and a half months break. i think i've developed a rotting-at-home phobia during my half a year break before i started my degree. tell me who worries bout having a break! jeez..i gotta quit being a worry freak at times. Anyway, after thinking of all kinds of stuffs that I can do and how to go about it, I finally decided, ah what the heck, just enjoy it and not complain and worry bout not making the full use of it.
After all, i think this will be the only longest break ever I'm gonna get in the course of my degree. So enjoy I shall! :D But if any of you guys have any activities in mind and want more people to make it merrier, call meee!! :D

More than a nice melody,
More than the sweetest of words.

Reporting,,

2010-04-18T00:15:00.009+08:00

Wrote this post on Saturday but by the time I uploaded the pics, the internet went off so couldn't post it up. anyway, why waste the effort kan? so I'll just post it now. heh ;D

Saturday, 17.04.2010

I'm so tired X.X
Bahh..why do i always do things in the eleventh hour and fity-ninth minute and cause myself such misery and stress each time.
My day..

Hours of reading in Starbucks. absolutely love the Green Tea drink. Oh and by the way, I find mind maps actually really helpful. :)
dear roomie tammy. :) she wasn't feeling well so I had to drive us there. It's been months since I went behind the wheels. but nah i dun miss it altho' i kinda like having a long drive alone once in a while. gives me time to think. =]
Baby Edward. cute kid in starbucks.
studied till 6, followed roomie to church, was in Mandarin, could hardly understand a thing lol, roomie and friend kept translating ;D, came home and now feeling extreemely exhausted, tummy not feeling well, mild food poisoning i guess, hitting the bed soon and expecting to sleep like a log
zzzzzzzzz

and tomorrow I've to do it all over again. 4 chapters of Marketing to go.
stresssss

Monday 19.04.10
MKT 101 Finals 8am - 11.10am

Woke up with a tummy ache, a sore throat and a running nose.
Went through tutorials.
And thinking well I tried my best, God'll take care of the rest.:]
Roomie fetched me to school.
Downed biscuits to last me till 11.
Got a seat near the windows with an awesome view.
Could see the KL tower from where I sat and there were construction workers working on a building and being a person who went through half of her secondary school years thinking that she'll be an architect, I found looking at them working fun to watch. :D
Questions were exactly the same as tutorial.
I personally don't like the way they set the questions, no standard at all & it's just unfair for those who didn't know that the lecturer's also known as miss lazy,copy & paste tutorial questions bulat bulat.
Well, anyway, I tried writing whatever I could remember.
Write write write. Look out window. Dream.write write write. Look out window. Dream.
finished after almost 3 hours.
Looked around.
Almost the whole hall left d =/
Ooh and this definitely needs to be shared, the invigilator today was really nice!
When she collected my paper, she said," Have a great day." and she gave that motherly smile.

Funny how seeemingly small gestures like this can put a smile on my face.

Positivity is contagious. :)

And now back home, another paper tomorrow.

ACC103 - Management Accounting. tough one.

So I guess I'll stop here and go prepare. :)

Teach me how to live.
Teach me how to love.

Boohoo

2010-04-12T12:59:00.008+08:00

Something's wrong with my phone and so I'll be using this for the time being.Blackberry. Dad's old phone.
But I'm not happy.
>:(
'Cos I just got news that my dear phone which couldn't receive and make calls well recently has to be formatted and I didn't even have a chance to save anything!
There's the 2000 messages inbox with messages all the way from year 2008, received from many people whom I treasure and there's the draft folder which holds various reminders and which also acts as my personal journal.

and now it'll all be gone.
It's like washing away a part of my memory.
Bittersweet memories.

Yes i'm sentimental.
:(

But oh wells, I guess I'll just have to make new memories.
:)

have a nice day.
:)

Beautiful Love

2010-04-04T11:56:00.005+08:00

"PETALING JAYA: Christians around the country celebrated Easter Sunday by attending church services held to mark the solemn occasion..."

- thestar.com.my -

That's part of an article from TheStar. I've been a pretty outdated and lousy citizen lately so decided I go read some news. ;D Anyway, regarding what's above, I don't think they made a right choice of word in describing Easter. :) Joyful Victorious Awesommeee would better describe it lar. After all, it's a celebration to remind us of how amazing and sacrificial God's love is to mankind (me and you). Love so unfailing and beautiful that He's willing to sacrifice His Son on the cross to cleanse our sins (again, mine and yours!) And Jesus rose again on the third day! :) (which explains why it's called Good Friday and three days later, Easter Sunday). Our God ain't dead. Nothing solemn about that. He's a real living God who just wants to be so personal to you and me. Jesus wants to give us a hope and everlasting life! Are you in?

Food for thought : He overcame death. So what else is there in your life that He can't help you overcome?

For what do I have,
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life,
Could mean any more?
You are my rock,
You are my glory,
You are the lifter,
Of my head.
Cry in My Heart - Starfield

Picking up where I left...

2010-03-25T21:10:00.003+08:00

These are the few pictures available in my phone, ignore the bad quality. Anyway, been trying to save up for the past few weeks especially on my food so I did more cooking at home.:) That's 'cos I'm saving up for my iPod Touch! BUT last week, dad gave me a new sony mp4 player :D so I guess I don't need an iPod Touch now....although I really want one! xD I thought of putting the savings to buy a camera now instead. hah anyway, i'm in no position to sound enthusiastic about purchasing anything! 'cos currently, me trying to save ain't exactly working out well but yeah there's progress. :)

High school friend PUVENES! :) could finally meet up with her in 1U.top left : boiled bittergourd + apple drink. i didn't have dates with me and the next sweet thing i could think of was apples. x) but it was good. no joke. n' not forgetting it's good for the pimples! heh.
2nd left : housemates didn't cook this whole week so that's the picture of my dinner tonight. dried oyster porridge. :)
top right : what i made for dinner tonight too. fried egg with basil leaves. it's a thai delicacy that i usually have in ipoh. my fav :)
middle : yong tau fu with taucu sauce. made that for breakfast the other day before heading for my 10.30 class. ;D

xD was bored with assignments so i edited pictures instead xD

Hmm...now for some highlights of the week..worship-lead in cf (christian fellowship) for the first time last friday and man was i nervous! but really thank God for very supportive and helpful cf members, especially the worship team. :) I don't know if everyone faces this for the first time; I couldn't really focus on God, my head was too cluttered with when to show the sign to go to the verse/chorus and whether or not I was leading others to worship God as well. But I'm glad I overcame my fears and took that first step of faith to serve Him 'cos there's always been this longing and desire to serve Him in this area but I was always just too scared. But He took the fears away. :)

Hmm what else...yeah been spending a lot of time on my marketing assignment lately. Lots of discussions and discussion sessions were all very fun, lots of crappy lame jokes but yeah the job still gets done. :) But it's still not complete yet, in particularly my part 'cos it's the hardessssstttt. this is what you get when you're the only girl in a group of 4 guys. hrmph. but not that i'm complaining that I'm not happy with the group. :) Other than that, I've got two more assignments which I've yet to touch on. And one's due next week. And funny, any normal person should be stressed by now (and not to mention there's another test 2 days from now!) but I don't seem to be stressed when i should be stressed, which makes me stressed for not being stressed. bah just ranting. ;) *sigh* gotta really get my ass moving or else I'll be crying on the nights before the datelines.

Ah-hah, thought of something so amazing I just gotta share it with you guys. Last 2 Sundays, I went for a jog and after that I was supposed to meet my friend Puvenes in 1Utama. So I was waiting for the bus to get to 1U BUT blurr me was waiting at the wrong bus stop. I was waiting at the opposite direction and I went up a bus which goes AWAY from 1U. So yeah after waiting for super long, I was so glad a bus came but I didn't know that it was actually a wrong bus and I only found out when the bus had already stopped at the next bus stop which is quite a distance from where i first boarded the bus. So quickly ran down the bus before the doors closed and the bus attendant told me that I've got to walk back to the previous bus stop to wait on the opposite side. And it was 1pm and the sun was burning hot!! So walk n walk till wanna cry d T.T so walk walk walk and the previous bus stop was so dang far...and I didn't even know the exact place to wait for the right bus. felt so dang frustrated and lost. Halfway walking, I turned back and went back to the 2nd bus stop n thought of taking a taxi there. So walk back n waited for about 15 minutes but no taxis. T.T then I thought, kay walk back to the other bus stop AGAIN to wait for the bus then...I was being roasted under the hot sun while carrying two heavy bags... But then, guess what? when I was just about to walk towards the previous bus stop, a taxi came! :D AND when I entered the taxi, guess what the taxi driver said?

Taxi driver : " Actually I don't want to take this road, I wanted to turn left just now (there was a left turning not very far away from where I was standing)but I don't know why I was blurr and I just went straight. But bagus juga lah or else I wouldn't be able to pick you. "

Like Thank God!!!! :D

Sceptics call this coincidence but I don't care what you think or what anyone else thinks 'cos I know with all me heart that God was my provider. :))) He always is. :))

There've been many times when God has provided for even my very lil needs, so little I never thought of asking but He provides. Oh yes He does. :)

read this. :)

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews11.1

gibber jabber

2010-03-24T22:06:00.006+08:00

Lots of things been happening ever since my last post and I just don't know where to start and if I were to list down everything that's been happening, I think it'll be so wordy it'll be longer than my 3000-word-marketing-report that I'm supposed to be writing now instead of blogging. :P

heyhey pause awhile and try reading the above sentence again in one breath. xP heh i think i should stop writing long sentences. i've always got the tendency to do that. xP

It's gonna be a wordy post this time again. Haven't been taking much pictures lately. I want take pictures. I want freeze memories. I want keep them in electronic drawers called folders. I want to look at them 10 years from now and smile or cry. :D D:

I'm in crapping mode now. In crapping mode can't blog. Will end up with a post full of nonsense. So i better stop. Updates in the next post. Okay. Short sentences ain't working for me.

"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me." Psalm 51:10

Every day

2010-03-13T13:02:00.005+08:00

You don't get filled once and be left alone to last on your own till it runs out. We need His power, His strength and His presence CONTINUOUSLY. You don't get filled on one Sunday service and think oh i've got my supply of strength now...Days pass and you take each day very positively in the beginning. But, when problems arise one by one till the point you get so consumed by 'em and you feel weak and you think , hey, didn't i just experienced God's presence the other day? Haven't I drawn enough strength from Him to go through this week? Just think about this, how many meals do you eat a day? How many meals do you eat in a week? Can you just down a Big Mac and hope it lasts you for a week without food? Analogously, our Spirit man needs spiritual food every day. Men do not leave on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God. We need to enter His presence every day, communicate with Him every day, renew our strength in Him every day. (and not just wait for Sundays to experience this awesome God.)

We're made to rely on Him.

But ain't it good having such a loving and merciful God who accepts us for all that we are to rely on?

**************

And now for some updates, got behind the wheels in KL for the first time yesterday!! :D x100 woohoo! nyah. Got the confidence now. ;D I'm kinda chicken-y when it comes to driving in unknown places or real busy roads. But cousin was a great encourager yesterday. :) And I always thought driving in a jam was scary cos cars are so near you'll tend to scratch 'em. (teehee) Got stuck in a terrible jam yesterday (for the first time! i love 'first time's ;P)and nah...apa so scary? haha. Ooh and did reverse parking for the first time also! xp (note : dear pro experienced drivers, please bear with me...i ain't got my license very long ago you see..=p) So at the end of the day, brought me and me cousin back home in two perfect pieces and dad's perdana 's perfectly ok that my dad wouldn't realise i took it without his permission! xP Come 'on, he 's in Spore! Why waste money making a call there rite? x) Oh and talking bout Spore, family made a FAMILY trip there WITHOUT me. So much for OHANA. but oh wells, I blame it on me exams. hrmph. AND the saturday classes. hrmph. But at least they came visit on Thursday before leaving and brought me a whole supply of good Ipoh food and chocolates! :D

Letting go to You.

BudakBudak

2010-03-07T22:15:00.006+08:00

Being around kids is just such joy. =D except for the times they annoy you to the max demanding for your handphone. and when they accidentally delete incoming messages while trying to search for the games. Other than that and some cranky moments, they're just such sweethearts!

Me (saw some tiny lil fishies in the pond) : Aww so cutteeee!
Eugene : Just like you che che. *:)*

WAHAHAHAHA xD

Eugene (who loves barley) : I want drink barley forever. I want my cousin forever.

THIS BOY IS GONNA MELT HEARTS MAN!And he kept asking questions and trying to explain the occurrence of earthquakes and Nelson Mandela to him without using jargons was just such LOL-ing time.

And I was trying to scoop lil fishes out of the pond and FAILED...they just don't wanna masuk my lil container. And 'Guru Eugene' took over and said;

"Che che, patience is very important.....see, slow and easy.....*and he managed to scoop a whole lot of fishes*. *and he then flashes that irresistable wide smile*
Oh kids!

How beautiful is Your unfailing love.

Vriende

2010-03-06T03:26:00.006+08:00

It's 3:26am and I just had my shower, with no water heater. it's spoiled since forever. COLDDD. Came back from a truly inspiring movie just now and feeling truly inspired. hah will review in the next post.

Just completed my LAW mid sem exam today (it was okay :) thank God i didn't go blank) Stayed in college a lil while and then went for post-exam-celebratory dinner and later a late-night movie with friends, Jascinta and Jeff. (I haven't been mentioning much names in my blog. I think I probably should start introducing ya'll to my college friends alrdy. ;) ) As usual, great company & great time. Sometimes I do wonder how can we talk non stop for hours. ;D Ji muis. hahaha xD. And to clarify something, I realised that in my previous post, I sounded very unappreciative of the current friends that I have now. I really do not want to convey that message 'cos I truly am thankful for being blessed with such good friends.

People say..'Old friends are gold. New friends are silver.' As for me, I'd prefer not to classify them to Old and New in the first place. 'Cos they're all gold. :)

Ps : Thanks for all the concerns about the previous post. Appreciate all your care and concern so much. I'm okay. Was just feeling very... 'emo' (i can't think of any other better words to use...it's 3.46am!) and I felt better after expressing it out.

*Gives out long breathh* It's now 3:53am and guess what? I've got class at 8 am tomorrow!!!! (woops i mean today.xp) miserable can? plus it's a SATURDAY.

Hah i just hope i can wake up. :D

<3 You Jesus. :)

Five Principles for Authentic Communication

2010-02-26T11:17:00.005+08:00

#1
Communication problems are usually heart problems.
#2
Your ears are your most important communication tools.
#3
Good communication doesn't happen by accident.
#4
The absence of conflict doesn't equal good communication.
#5
Motive is more important than technique.

taken from BoyMeetsGirl-J.Harris.

not by my might but Yours.

Me, Myself & Irene

2010-02-24T21:59:00.005+08:00

The post title sounds somewhat emo, like a person declaring to the whole world that she's entering isolation mode & will fend for no one but herself. Alternatively, the phrase, if read with a different frequency of emotions will lead to an interpretation that she's wallow-ing in self-pity and loneliness.

HAH but no, this is not an emo post and for those of you who are wondering, the she aka me am not feeling anything like what's mentioned above. It's a movie title I'm referring to!.:P Yes, Me,Myself & Irene is a movie!
Came accross this just now. Never knew its existence till now. Oh it's a Year 2000 movie anyway. A decade ago. But hah am eager to watch it 'cos how often do you get your name appearing as the title of a Holywood movie? hehehehehe. Hopefully YouTube has it. Will review after I'm done. :)

Perseverance.

I found my Baby G!

2010-02-19T19:30:00.005+08:00

Day 6 of CNY and I've officially spent every single dollar of my angpaus.

They all went to bring this beautiful babe back home!
:D
Oh loves! Since I can't play any songs decent enough yet to show what a beautiful voice this babe can make, I'll just fill this post with picturess!

altho' the quality of the pics ain't good 'cos i gotta make do with my 3.2 Megapixels camera phone. But oh wells, my baby still looks pretty!
:D
Ibanez V72E is her name. But since every guitar in my house gets her own special name, I thought of naming her MilkCow! [ for her milky wood colour. heh.]see? Light couloured & Milky.love.wood.her beautiful golden hair.

bonding session :)
baby&mommy xDPrice tag's still on. Got it for RM490 after an extremely long bargaining session. Thanks to bro for it or else it would've cost me RM550. But it still exceeded my budget of RM350. teeheee.

Oh my babyyyy..;D

People.

2010-02-18T23:54:00.005+08:00

I've read this in several places & heard it being spoken by several experienced and respected people who've been there, done that ; Relationships are the most rewarding things in life.

This is something I can never agree more on. And relationships here does not just refers to the boy-loves-gurl one. It's relationships with people; It's any form of two-way-relationships.

'Cos at the end of it all, what are the things that matter most?
Relationships with people (how many lives have we touched/impacted, our neighbours (people around us), our family, God's family, friends, our exclusive other) & of course our relationship with our Heavenly Father.

So...,
Are your investments where your treasures are?
Or are you too occupied by your 'treasures'?
Or are you still chasing the wind, searching for 'treasures' to hold on to?

Okayy, those few lines up there might not have sounded very applicable to us, people -in-our-late-teens/ young adults.Sounds more applicable to always-neglect-family-and-human-relationships-workaholics who work their ass off. But you know, I think it does apply to us. This chinese new year especially has made me realise that I've been wasting a lot of time, been taking time for granted. To think about it, how often do I get to meet up with all my relatives? How often do we have the chance of sitting all on the same table and have dinner? Not many..not many...probably only once a year. And I still had to take time out of the lil time we had to break me ice, to get the conversations rolling and before I know it or when we were just having a great time together, everyone gotta bid farewell & weee...gotta wait another year to have another such opportunity. But thankfully, there's the Facebook & MSN to make things better but not all relatives are internet savvy..took me a whole lot of time teaching my aunt how to use her facebook account the other day. -.-

But hmm...does that mean we gotta be on the phone 24/7 calling people whom we care & neglecting everything else? Hmm nah..that's not the point that I'm trying to convey here. People are everywhere & there's always an opportunity to love. I guess what I'm trying to say is that our life's goals, whatever they are, shouldn't be overshadowing our greater purpose in life, that is, loving God and loving others.

Love when you have the chance. Show someone that you care before it's too late. Love and care also for the needy. Love also your enemies. Show your family you love them. Show your friends how much you truly care. Love one another with the love of Christ.To sum it all up, love is the key.

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,but have not love, I gain nothing. 1Corinthians13:1-3

I have never counseled a dying man
who regretted not having made more money,
but quite a few regretted not having
spent enough time with their families.
-Charles Swindoll

Temporary Home

2010-02-11T00:36:00.001+08:00

SWEET!

2010-02-10T15:00:00.004+08:00

Came back home,
(not supposed to be back till 5.30pm but i skipped my marketing lecture and tutorial 'cos i can't make myself concentrate in her class anyway. Plus got stuffs to do at night so I need my rest. So..I guess I've got er valid reasons...xD But yea i promised myself that this'll be the last time. keeping fingers crossed. :p)
Yea came home,
dumped stuffs on the table,
headed straight to the kitchen,
Opened the fridge
And pop! And idea to make something.
:)

That's what I've been doing lately whenever I come home early from classes.
I'm in the loving-&-enjoying-cooking phase now.
It's just fun! heh.
And love the satisfaction you get when something turns out nice but if it doesn't, oh wells, it'll get better the next time. :)
And today, I made Sweet Potato dessert!
yums yums!:)
And the best thing is that it's SO simple.
But it would've been better if i just had some ginger.

<3 the colour.
Am enjoying a piping hot bowl of it while typing this now,
and there's still more in the kitchen.
:)
Thought of giving some to my friends who stay in the hostel but how am i gonna deliver it to them? And i don't think they'll want to take the trouble of walking over.

So set,chilled sweet potato dessert for tomorrow's breakfast!
:)

Off to complete my Accounting tutorial now. Agreed to accompany the brother get his CNY clothes in Midvalley tonight. Feeling lazy......don't want to go...plus I'm supposed to be staying away from shopping malls now! Just in case i can't resist the temptation. heh.

*burp.
:)

If you're gonna do it anyway..

2010-02-04T16:58:00.008+08:00

,why not do it with a smile instead of sulking your way through?

If you're gonna do it anyway..

,why not make it memorable instead of doing just enough to get through?

If you're gonna do it anyway..

,why not do it confidently rather than going through it timidly and with fear?

If you're gonna do it anyway..

,why crush your spirit and that of those around you by complaining,and complaining,and complaining?

If you're gonna do it anyway..

,why not give your best?

This is the day the Lord has made;
let us rejoice and be glad in it!:)
Psalm 118:24

Have a nice day.:)
<3rene

Sometimes I wonder,

2010-01-30T22:12:00.007+08:00

how can things be so simple for others..when for me, things are just complicated (or so it seems).

or maybe i, like everyone else, just need to stop thinking that the grass is always greener on the other side.

random renefact : she loves the dew in the morning. :)

2010-01-22T01:05:00.002+08:00

Just found a couple of new awesome songs!

<3 <3 <3

Check out the new playlist!

;D

ps : thanks aaron yap for your good taste in music.haha. took some of the songs from your playlist.

His love rawks my world.
God's love.

What annoyed me most

2010-01-18T16:12:00.005+08:00

and is still bothering me a lot is when I can't be myself in front of certain people. It's that situation when my words become few & I'm just not my usual self.

note to self : you're so annoying.

To the brim

2010-01-17T22:46:00.004+08:00

Although I'm thankful & contented for what I have & for who I am & for how things are,

I want more than this.

There must be more than this.

Increase my faith. :)

My parents just called her daughter a pig x(

2010-01-16T14:02:00.004+08:00

After a hearty ipoh breakfast, went to pick up bro's stuffs in his friend's house with my parents. His friend stays behind a mosque.

Rene: Wah they stay behind a mosque very noisy eh
Mom : It's okay 1 after you get used to it
Dad : Our house also can hear wat in the morning
Rene : Recently ar?
Mom : Aiyor! All these while (been staying in this house ever since I was two) also can hear their prayers every
morning lar.
Rene : Hah?!! How come I never hear before 1?
Mom & Dad (in unison =.=) : Of course lar..You sleep like a pig.

-____________________-

I'd prefer 'deep sleeper' thank you.
xp

Have a nice day.
:)

Current state : Emotional

2010-01-14T16:53:00.002+08:00

I don't like making any decisions or taking any abrupt actions when I'm in an emotional state 'cos feelings, they're pretty good deceivers really. I don't think a person is thinking in his right mind when he's controlled by his feelings and emotions and all.

For the last few days, I felt so weak. I found it so hard to control my thoughts, so hard to fight away negative and untrue thoughts. I found it so easy to be consumed by my feelings. I found it so easy to shut myself off from the people around me. And funny, when this happens, to my closer friends, I just can't hide or more like don't want to make the effort to hide that I'm just not in the mood. I just hang the visual tag which says "I won't be talking much, won't be laughing at your jokes ( no matter how funny they really are) , just want to be alone." But towards casual friends, it seems to be a different scenario. I realise that I can sound just perfectly fine! Just as jolly & cheerful or probably sound even extra jolly. Hah probably it's because all the frowning's too tiring and and...hah I don't know why I act like that either. I guess that's just how I roll.

So what's the point & verdict of this post? No point. No verdict.
Just wanted to express myself & spread my emoness to you readers. *wahaha**evil cackle*

Note to self : Stop letting your joy be robbed. The world didn't give it and the world can't take it away.

Anywayyyyyyy,

On an entirely different note, went out for the first time with my cell group members from Glad Tidings PJ yesterday night. It was FUN! :) Enjoyed myself & had great fellowship with my bros & sis in Christ. Since I'm quite new to the cell, yesterday was a great chance to get to know each other more & I'd say that yesterday was a good start. Hope to have more outings like this. Anyway, to describe a lil on the outing, it was Marwan's birthday. And his nationality might sound interesting to you ;) He's a Christian who is an Iraqi who is born in Poland and whose parents are working in Dubai and he's brought up most of the time in Malaysia. Dang complicated rite? I thought he was just pulling my leg when he said that. Had dinner in Jaya33 and after that went to OneU for movies but due to some complications can't watch so went to Pitstop in SS17 for yumcha. A pretty great place for hangout I would say. Had a great time playing all those complicated boardgames there & the good thing about the place is that the waiters are all real friendly & they actually teach you how to play each boardgame. (since the coolcool boardgames these days aren't as simple as monopoly & scrabble anymore. so the banyak complicated)

I guess that's all for now. Am feeling very much better now after having a chat with Sue Jane on msn. God brings to you the right person at the very right time. ;) It's been like ages since I last chat with her.

Current state : Trusting & Hopeful

I'm surrendering everything to You God.
EVERYTHING.

Irene Chin

2010-01-11T18:26:00.006+08:00

..just moved to a new house. 10 mins walk to college. no more staying in aunt's house so hello to freedom :D & laundry D:

..finally finished cleaning her room. *ahhhh....* *wipes sweat* *satisfied smile*

..had a cold shower while it was raining. water heater here's not working :( need to get a new one & wondering where to.

..got some getting used to do.

..missing cousins & the convenience of a family home.

..'s guy housemate Azri just entered the room topless. :O

..'s roomate says he's alwys like that; hardly wears his shirt at home.

..met 3 out of 5 housemates so far. they're all friendly. yay! :D

..didn't have to walk home today under the bocor-ed ozon layer & scorching sun. kind friend jeff offerred a ride. :D

..is listening to One Thing - Hillsongs.

..:cheerfulness & positivity is contagious.:D

..Azri just asked if we wanted to go to ss2 for dinner! *thinking* *hmmm*

..loves her roomate! <3

..is wondering what to do tonight.

..will be having bread & tuna for dinner. rejected the ss2 offer.

..is a lil annoyed at her own weaknesses.

..misses her ipoh friends. i know it's impossibe but wished they were here.

..: no tv, no hong kong dramas :( no american idol. :( :(

..: I'm sorry for being selfish.

..is thanking God for everything & most importantly His grace.

..'s first day of the new semester was not bad. enjoyed the ACC103 lecture. the lecturer was pretty cool B)

..will be babysitting her 2 year old cousin from Taiwan tomorrow. hopefully my very basic mandarin knowledge would suffice. ;D

..says, " This is what you do when you've got too much to write on your Facebook status. ;D"

and there goes the first post for 2010!:)
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2Cor12:9

journey with me,
rene <3

Adventure 1 : Gua Tempurung

2009-12-25T23:53:00.008+08:00

Aloha readers / concerned friends/ too-free-nothing-to-do-and-so-go-blog-hopping people, I figured since it's been awhile since I blogged on a regular basis, I'll try to recuperate the habit of blogging again by documenting my trip to Gua Tempurung. :) For those of you who don't know where it is or what it is, it's a cave called Tempurung in Perak. xp hah I was about to put a link to some tourism website which talks about the place when I thought, hey ain't this post gonna be all about it? So no need for a link, just read on. ;)

Pre-trip 25/12/2009 11:19pm
Feeling all excited! except for the fact that I have to get up before 7.30am tomorrow. dangggg. Searched the whole house for a torchlight & finally found one in the drawer where the new unused toothbrushes are kept. Wonder which smart fella left it there. And just before typing this, I was trying to find the way to Gua Tempurung through Google Map. We're driving there tomorrow and this will definitely add to the adventure (i just love this word! haha) So what's so adventurous about driving there you wonder? It's like this; I couldn't really understand the map plus it isn't very comprehensive in the first place (i think) 'cos it doesn't tell you where to exit the highway and so, we're not using the map and we're using the old road instead of the highway and we're gonna rely on signboards from Gopeng onwards! Okayy, after typing that out, I just realised how scary that sentence sounds! @@, cos signboards in Malaysia are .... oh God please bring us there safely!

edit : 1:05am
Ooh yesss! :D :D Was about to go offline when I thought that I should stop being lazy and go try and make some sense out of the map. And pfft...it wasn't that hard after all. haha. Zoomed in and followed the routes like it was some treasure map and I finally got it. :) *sigh of relief* Now, I'm pretty sure we won't get lost. And the signboards shall serve as reassurance. :) Going to hit the bed now. GOODnite. :)

The day 26/12/2009
unknown

*~to be continued~*

The Greatest Gift of Love and out of Love : Jesus

2009-12-25T23:07:00.008+08:00

Isaiah 9 : 6
For unto us a Child is born,
Unto us a Son is given;
And the government will be upon His shoulder.
And His name will be called
Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

Glory to God in the highest,
And on earth peace, goodwill toward men!

For God so loved the world, He sent His son.
For God so loved me and for God so loved you, we have life, we have Christmas.
:)

Being nice =/= being used

2009-12-10T23:17:00.007+08:00

urrggh. hello?!? saying a simple 'thank you' won't kill you know?! urrggh.

Sometimes, when I do someone a favour, I can say that I'm doing it sincerely and willingly. I sincerely want to help but it just gets so hard to continue to go the extra mile to help this person if he/she is just being soo unappreciative. I mean, just show that you appreciate it & not act like as if it's my duty to help you. It just makes me feel so used, so taken for granted. I really don't expect anything in return. I just want to be appreciated. Oh well, who doesn't? Don't you yourself want people to appreciate all that you've done for them? Is that too much to ask?

I'm human too.
*Sighs*
I'm just ranting.
And you know, it really makes me amazed once again of how noble, how selfless & gracious God's love is. He is willing to send Jesus to die on the cross for our sins, you & I, even when we do not appreciate him, even when we keep rejecting Him again & again. Some even mocked Him for what He did on the cross & Jesus died on the cross for them too;
for everyone.

Right, so back to the me feeling used issue, so should I continue to offer my help?
I found my answer in these verses. ;)

"Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.." Luke 6:27-28

"Love is patient, love is kind, It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." 1 Cor 13:4-7

They don't appreciate it. Okay fine. But does that mean that you only love does who appreciate you? According to God's standards, No. He wants us to love even those who are not grateful for what we've done. (or what i personally would like to believe; it's not that they totally don't appreciate it. they probably do, a lil or a lot it doesn't matter, but they just don't know how to express it) But yeah, to love & show kindness to someone who's being ungrateful, it's not easy, it seriously is not easy. Oh God do I need Your strength to do what's right! :)

And since we're on this issue, I'll add on this other related issue. ;) Years back, I used to wonder & ask; God says love one another & to love our enemies & to do good to those who hate you...so does that mean that it's ok for us to be taken for granted?
Do we have to say yes all the time? Do we have to help each and every time a person asks for help?

This is what I've found out over the years. Do correct me if I'm wrong. It's always good to discussss. ;)
What I've come to realise is this; help those who are in need. Why should a person ask for help in the first place? Simple. Because he needs it.
But in this world of selfish people, many ask for help when in fact, they don't even need it. They request for a favor for their own comfort, for their want & not their need. For example, during my schooling days I've known schoolmates who constantly wants to copy friends' assignments or projects when crap they have their own brains & hands to do it! They're just being plain lazy & want to fish something out of his/her nice friend's kindness. And dialogs as such becomes their weapon to obtain what they want; to do things the easy way out.

"I thought Christians are supposed to help everyone?! Now ask you to "help" me, let me copy this part only also cannot?!?"

"Haiyar, we're friends mar...rite?! friends help friends"

Oh yea sure they might sound real dang convincing at times. But no, I don't think you should help them. (Encouraging their lazy behaviour isn't helping them in the long run anyway. Give a man a fish & it feeds him for a day; teach a man to fish & it feeds him for a lifetime.)

Instead, what I've come to realise is that we should help those in need; who truly need our help. I believe that we should help because we want to ease the other person's burden, to show that we truly care & not to help out of pressure from the other party. When Jesus was travelling around preaching, He didn't stop by to every single help request. It wasn't mentioned that he stopped to help e.g. a destressed rich man find his lost gold pen. But it is mentioned that He went from town to town, healing the sick and the lame and the blind & giving comfort to widows. And I believe that Jesus did not go around each town helping every single person there was in the town for that would've taken ages! I believe that Jesus knew His priority; what was more important. He could not stay in one town for too long for He needed to share the good news to other towns as well before the time comes for Him to fulfill His work on the cross.

I feel that this implies to us as well, know our priority. We do not have to say yes to each and every request. See the importance & prioritise.

I believe that in helping others & doing good to others, God also wants us to exercise wisdom. Be wise. I feel that loving others does not mean that you should be like a fool and let others use you all the time. Or should I say; Don't be used but be of good use. And most importantly I would say is to listen to the Holy Spirit and let Him guide us in every step that we take. :)

Again, I'd like to say that I'm open to comments & criticisms. :) Do correct me if I'm wrong. I'm just stating what I believe is right.

You know what? After writing this post, now I feel that hey, I shouldn't have been so frus about the whole thing just now.
Oh God help me love like You.

But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.
Matthew 6:20

don't you say why were the old days better; just because you're scared of the unknown; take My hand and walk

2009-12-08T01:47:00.003+08:00

Just came across this song on a friend's blog. Can go check it out on youtube. It's very country-style like but it's the lyrics that I'm attracted to. ;)

The Kry - Take my hand

I know there are times
your dreams turn to dust
you wonder as you cry
why it has to hurt so much
give Me all your sadness
someday you will know the reason why
wih a child-like heart
simply put your hope in Me

Chorus:
take My hand and walk where I lead
keep your eyes on Me alone
don't you say why were the old days' better
just because you're scared of the unknown
take My hand and walk

don't live in the past
cause yesterday's gone
wishing memories would last
you're afraid to carry on
you don't know what's comin'
but you know the one who holds tomorrow
I will be your guide
take you through the night
if you keep your eyes on Me

take My hand and walk where I lead
keep your eyes on me alone
don't you say why were the old days better
just because you're scared of the unknown
take My hand and walk where I lead
you will never be alone
faith is to be sure of what you hope for
and the evidence of things unseen
so take My hand and walk

just like a child
holding daddy's hand
don't let go of mine
you know you can't stand on your own

30 Nov 2009 :D

2009-11-30T21:31:00.003+08:00

Despite having a headache and an exam to take the next day,

I'd say that this birthday was by far one of the sweetest because of such sweet sweet people in my life!

Though I posted this on facebook, I'll say it here again;

Thanks for all the simple gestures that mean so much!

Thanks for all the surprises!

Thanks for all the gifts!

Thanks for all the phone calls (near & far!)

Thanks for all the sms-es!

Thanks for all the wishes on facebook wall etc!

And thanks for making me able to say thanks for so many times in a day!

And one thing I realised, a birthday need not have "blasts" in order for it to be a blast! haha get it? lol. Simple acts of care speak volumes. Say, a happening birthday party is nothing greater than a simple quiet, specially prepared dinner with the best parts of the meat & all your favourite food being scooped into your plate continuously. :) And that was what I had. And the birthday lunch need not be in the fanciest restaurant ever to be special. I ate economy rice for lunch today! But oh nothing miserable about it & it was equally special, in its own way.

Well, but of course, there's the thing about taking the initiative and not just celebrating one's birthday in a simply manner; to show that you truly care for the person and want to make that person feel special. Well, but I guess, the birthday girl/boy/man/woman will somehow know whether what was done was out of the heart or not. ;)

Hah sorry if you guys don't quite understand what I just wrote above 'cos I just typed whatever came to mind & I might not have phrased the sentences to bring out the meaning that I wanted to. Haha my macroeconomics book is crying out to me; got so many chapters which I've not covered yet. I'll post some pics in the next post! Till then!

This 19 bittersweet years of my life wouldn't have been that sweet,that joyful & that meaningful if I've never known such a great Saviour & God like You.

Thank You for Your faithfulness, Your blessings, Your comfort, Your guidance, Your miracles & continue to teach me & mould me that I may grow from strength to strength, from glory to glory, to glorify You. :)

& lastly, happy birthday to me!! wahaha

Since...

2009-11-29T12:53:00.002+08:00

the examzz craze's on, I thought of reposting this post I wrote somewhere in April this year. Instead of copy and past-ing it, I'll just put the link here. :)

Read this post :)

If your heart is broken, you'll find God right there;
if you're kicked in the gut, he'll help you catch your breath.
psalm34:18
He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds.
psalm147:3

Do u like it?

2009-11-25T17:41:00.006+08:00

Hah. Hopefully the new look gives me the mood to blog more. xD

By the way, for those of ya'll who's tired of looking at your same ol' blog template, check this out!

http://thecutestblogontheblock.com/
(note : but i think it's juz for gals unless you guys want your blogs looking gay :p)
Everything's really pretty & I took one whole hour to choose my background 'cos everything's so pretty! :D

And gah! I'm late! Meeting some friends at 6 and now it's oh no...rush.rush.rush. A more proper update soon!
toodles!have a great week!
& for Help-ians, happy studying! ;D

Whose standards are you living by?
The One above or the ones around you?

Of tv series, the new sem & results

2009-10-22T15:46:00.005+08:00

I find it somewhat pointless to blog about my happenings and my where-abouts, regardless of how interesting or mundane the things that I've done or the places that I've been to. Yes, i'ma a bad blogger. You won't be able to get much updates of myself here. But personally, I love reading updates on friends' blogs. It's nice to see what they've been up to lately and if i'm lucky (or if they're not too lazy to upload them), I get to see some interesting pictures! :) Hah but I just don't have that level of enthusiasm (for blogging) myself to be uploading pictures and story-tell of the small to big events of me life. haha.

Clearly, I'm not in a mood for blogging now. I'll keep the updates for next time! :)

Before that, ya'll might wanna check this out! ROYAL PAINS! Starworld, every Tuesday 9pm.

me love it! ;D although the cute doc is maybe just a lil too old. haha.

If ya'll wanna know what this series' all about, here's a short summary from the net;-

ROYAL PAINS centers on a young E.R. doctor who, after being wrongly blamed for a patient's death, moves to the Hamptons and becomes the reluctant "doctor for hire" to the rich and famous. When the attractive administrator of the local hospital asks him to treat the town's less fortunate, he finds himself walking the line between doing well for himself and doing good for others.

And of course, there's always the humour and romance to spice things up! ;)

By the way, classes are only on Mon, Tues and Wed for this sem.
Yay me!
3 days of work and 4 days of fun.
haha.
Yes I'm boasting.

And ah yes, I got my results on the day my new semester started. And PRAISE GOD! Looking at my results on the screen literally made me laugh, out of gratitude and awe of God's grace and faithfulness all these years. 2As and 2A-s. :) You can read this post to know how hot a soup I was in before the papers. One thing for sure, God answers when you cry out to Him. :) But nope, not gonna take His grace for granted this sem around.

Guess that's all for now,
toodles~!
:)

coughcough*

2009-10-10T01:06:00.005+08:00

Today, I got a visit from..
Mr.Cough.
Mr. Flu.
Mr. Sorethroat.
Mr. Tummyache.
&
Mr. Headache.

*sighs*
Why must they all come at the same time?

Go away. You're all not welcomed! SHoo!

And no, Mr. Fever did not visit. (and i hope he doesn't) so it's not what you think it is. Incomplete symptoms.

Note : Never go jogging when you're having a stomachache. It just makes things a whole lot worse! x.x

-out
have a great weekend!;)

In Retrospect, The Now, And The Tomorrows.

2009-10-08T02:06:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i really don't know what i want,

where to go,
what next,
what choice to make,
and the Holy Spirit keeps reminding me, "Surrender to God"
but I say, " It doesn't makes sense. How will surrendering to God help?"
The best thing that I should be doing now is to think it through, make sense of the situation (or try to make sense of the situation) and sort things out.
But the Holy Spirit says, " No, you surrender to God and watch His mighty hands work.Let Him lead you, step by step."

So there was this time, where I had to make this major decision.
Humans, we like to take things into our own hands.to be in control.
But clueless as I was, at wit's end, I said, " God, I really surrender to You. You know my heart's desires and You know what's best. Let Your will be done and I'll follow. Lead me, step by step."
And days and weeks and months passed.
And one day I realised, " Hmm things have been going surprisingly smooth. Somehow everything just fell into place. All these good things, I didn't even plan for them to happen. The questions which have been bugging me and my worries of which college to go to, where to stay, how will the people there be like, will i be able to find close and true friends?"
Looking back, I laugh at myself. Oh me of little faith. Where's your trust in God?
If you were wondering, all those worries no longer remain worries. Cos God has provided. And the first semester in Help, I loved it. Great friends.Great company. who provide a great lot of laughter. A warm family to live with. A very caring cousin to bully or be bullied on my journeys back home. (haha). Relationship with my aunt, my uncle and my cousins have improved tremendously by the time my first semester ended. Healthy home-cooked-food. Results that I'm really thankful for. Caring friends who have helped me a lot and two especially close lovely darlings who have kept me accountable with my walk with God, two darlings whom i can call to pour me heart out, God-given loving and supportive friends, both old and new,whom are so dear to me I can call them sisters.

You know, looking back, I was really worrying a lot before going to Help until I surrendered to Him.
And God took care of everything.:)

And now, facing another crossroad,
and again, being the worry creature that I am,
worry worry worry,
Making decisions are pretty top on my 'Things that causes stress list'.
And again I ask,
"How lar where lar what lar when lar who lar"
But God says,
"Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

And I say,
"To You I surrender."

-.- xD -.- xD

2009-10-06T02:42:00.005+08:00

Figured I'll share a mail I received. Most of the statements are lame but I'm sure there'll be at least one or two that'll put a smile on your face. :)

"I knew a girl that was so stupid that........
1. She called me to get my phone number.
2. She spent 20 minutes looking at the orangejuice box because it said 'concentrate.'
3. She put lipstick on her forehead because she wanted to make up her mind.
4. She tried to put M&M's in alphabetical order.
5. She sent me a fax with a stamp on it.
6. She tried to drown a fish.
7. She thought a quarterback was a refund.
8. She got locked in a grocery store and starved to death.
9. She tripped over a cordless phone.
10. She took a ruler to bed to see how long she slept.
11. She asked for a price check at the dollarstore.
12. She studied for a blood test.
13. She thought Meow Mix was a CD for cats.
14. When she heard that 90% of all crimes occur around the home, she moved.
15. When she missed the 44 bus, she took the 22 bus twice instead.
16. When she took you to the airport and saw asign that said 'Airport Left' she turned aroundand went home"

*yawns*
-out.

A justforfun post

2009-10-04T23:40:00.004+08:00

A delayed tribute to MJ.
:P

have a great week ahead!:)

not all good things come to an end :]

Counting to 10 does not help. At least not for me.

2009-10-01T00:28:00.008+08:00

Dear God,
The thing you said about being patient, definitely not easy..Help me to be more patient.
Love, Irene.

Love is patient, love is kind...

Ps : This is actually a re-write. The actual post is still under my Drafts, unpost. Wrote the previous one in a real angrryy mood.you know, when you reach the last straw.when you feel like you're gonna blow.yeah. A lot of things written were better left unsaid. So i figured, nah...not appropriate to be posted here. :)

And by the way, I'm going to work tomorrow (in Kumon) !! xD It's not my first time working but somehow, I feel weirdly excited! hahaha

=D

2009-09-27T14:13:00.005+08:00

Let's not take ourselves too seriously,

Let's laugh off our mistakes,

get back on our feet, and try again. :)

Satan's Modus Operandi = Deception

2009-09-25T16:33:00.006+08:00

Read this somewhere :-)

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our greatest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am i to be fabulous, brilliant, talented, gorgeous? Actually, who are you not to be. You are a child of God and your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine; like children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not in just some of us;it is in every one of us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give people permission to do the same. As we are liberated by our fears, our presence automatically liberates others. "
-Nelson Mandela-extracted from “Screw It, Let’s Do It” by Richard Branson-

I think what's been said is more than enough, no need for me to elaborate or give my view. :) Read this somewhere and it was definitely eye-opening! Honestly, since young, I've kinda had this fear, fear of becoming my best, afraid of giving my best, afraid of praises. And I think I justified my fears by telling myself that hey it's ok at least I'm not making others feel intimidated.

But no-sir-no, God wants us to give our best. To take actions and make decisions with boldness and faith, and not out of fear. God wants His children to succeed. It's the enemy who wants us to fail. It's the satan who wants to stop us from giving our best to God. :)

"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." John 10:10

"The LORD will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the LORD your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom." Deuteronomy 28:1

That short extract really hit me like *Bamm in the face. I'm still learning. :)

And now, some updates, ;D totally enjoyed the raya hols! had a great week meeting up with different groups of friends who came back :D went for yumchas, lunchs or lunches?haha whatever, had a sleepover, went for badminton, jogging, movies etc etc...I was actually thinking hard for activities that we can do together, besides the usual ones like lunching and watching movies in jj..miserable old jj. But to think of it, no matter what we were doing, it was the quality time and the great conversations and heart to heart talks that i enjoyed the most. :) each other's company was more than enough! ;D You know what would be one of the greatest miseries of girls? To be unable to talk! ;D

And btw, I've been craving to have Korean BBQ with my group of friends since a longlong time ago and finally, tonight's the night! woohoo! ^^.

They make me feel so blessed. :)
ps: I've only got a few pics with me now.will upload the others on facebook. ;D (but gimme some time :P)
for all eternity, my heart will sing, all glory to Your name.

Quote of the day :D

2009-09-19T00:57:00.004+08:00

Love is not an impulse from feelings.

Sorry for the boring and lack-of-pictures posts lately. There're tonnes of pics taken here and there in my phone, waiting to be uploaded.It's the holidays! Lazy...:) By the way, my sem break's on till mid Oct. So will be in Ipoh. Hopefully can catch up with as many pals as possible. Oh and sl'mat hari raya to all you celebrating! :]

And lastly, HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY to a lovely cekap-in friend. :) love youuuu!!!!

I don't say this enough; " God, thank you for everythingggg.I sure am blessed!":)

There're so many

2009-09-16T22:53:00.003+08:00

things I want to do, so many things I want to learn

but

I just don't seem to have the courage to do it.

I don't know where to start.

a more proper update coming up soon ;)

I need

2009-09-15T22:28:00.003+08:00

time-out.

These days have been....

2009-09-15T14:11:00.003+08:00

filled with thought-provoking events. Or maybe it's just me. Haha. Take just now; went for lunch and a one-legged beggar came up to the table. And oh wells, nothing significant about it. But it made me think...That guy, clothed in all his humility, begging for grace and kindness, I mean once upon a time ago, he could've been this proud guy, boasting and talking out loud. But now, with his low soft voice he asks for help, bringing himself to the lowest level possible of society. The humility of a beggar. It made me wonder. Can a successful man who thinks he has got it all..a successful career and a family to be proud of, have the humility of a beggar?

I personally doubt so. Sadly but truly, men are mostly proud and self-centered in nature. They don't humble themselves. They are humbled. Humbled by storms which wreck their Ego Titanic. When they think they've got it all, when they think that they can handle everything on their own, when they think that they're steering their lives well, when they think that they are having it all under control and suddenly everything crashes down, that's when they get humbled. That's when they (case 1)realise that they're not 'Gods' and they need someone greater than men to steer their lives or (case 2) they start blaming God above for all that's happened.

When oh when will men realise that they're not God. That they're only mere men. That they are not only creators, but also creations.

Just a thought. :)

On a much lighter note,"Goodbye CostlyGreenMan and Hello YellowMan!" Go figure! ;D

have.a.nice.day
:)

2009-09-06T10:49:00.008+08:00

Finals tomorrow.
Tomorrow's subject, ITC, 8 chapters to be read.
only 2 done. 6 more untouched.
Took me 2 whole days to finish that 2 'SUPER-interesting-that-you-can't-fall-asleep' chapters. and now, 3 times of that to be completed in just a day? *faints*
And preparations for the other subjects ain't any better either.
Finished a case study for management and nothing else. literally, nothing! not a single SAQ or essay question touched.
Three chapters for econs and nothing else.

To think using one's logic mind, I'm in hot soup.
To think using one's logic mind, I don't deserve to get good results.

I guess that's why one's logic human mind can never fully understand and grasp grace eh?

Time and time again, every single time this thing happens. Each time i fail, fail to discipline myself to work hard, God never fails. His grace was always sufficient for me.
And lazy me have been taking it for granted.

I really really need God's grace again this time.

I'm no born genius. In fact, I support to the fullest those sayings like, "Success is 99% perspiration and 1% geniusity/inspiration." or "To succeed you gotta work hard..yadayda" "Hard work comes before success" etc etc.

I've said this before, I put in effort but not the amount of effort that is actually required to get the results that I got in the past.

God, I need You. I surrender to You. And I trust. I can't do this without You. Need Your grace, which I don't deserve.

Grace....no one deserves it. well, I guess that just points us back to the meaning of grace itself. :)

a related post i wrote a few months back : secret formula :)

If I get an A, it's all because of His grace.
If I get a B, it's all because of His grace. I could've gotten a C.
If I get a C, it's all because of His grace. I could've gotten a D.

encouraged :)

2009-08-26T20:50:00.004+08:00

Just received an SMS from Dad just now:

"I think you are better than you think you are."

Simple words yet so powerful. I was feeling kinda beaten down lately ( been forgetting that I am more than a conqueror! :D ). And that short sweet sms actually made me feel better in an instant, like a confidence booster shot. :) Which reminds me of something I read yesterday from the book The Five Love Languages : Singles edition by Gary Chapman :

The word encourage means to "inspire courage". All of us have areas in which we feel insecure. We lack courage and that lack of courage often hinders us from accomplishing the positive things we would like to do.

As much as I try to be 'strong' or 'a big gurl', thinking that I should not rely on the encouragement from the people around me, with or without, I will survive, I can't help but admit that hey, I need them. We all need them.

:)
Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.
1 Thessalonians 5 : 11
HAVE A GREAT DAY!

News @ 6

2009-08-24T17:37:00.004+08:00

Olah! :) Just a short update of what I've been up to lately. ;)

# Currently into Thunder - by Boys Like Girls. :D haha. Just out of a sudden I fell in love with the song once again and this time, I'm trying to play it on the guitar! Check out the acoustic version - awesome! :)

# Had a haircut. Hate it. Makes me look childish. x( But it's partly a good thing lar 'cos lately many have mistaken my age to be 20/21 when I'm not even 19 yet! *sighs*

# Been missing the long chats and simple yumcha sessions with you guys in Ipoh lately. I can't seem to make the time even when I'm in ipoh. Can't wait for the semester break in Sept!

# Speaking bout semester break, I've been wondering what in the world I'm gonna do in that 1 month! Don't wanna rot. By the way, it's from 11th Sept to 11th Oct. So if you're having yours too, call me! :)

# On Friday, went for a jog with my bro, just the two of us, haven't did that in a veryyy long time. Awesome! :) And had breakfast after that. simple yet super satisfying ipoh chee cheong fun! (i never knew that ipoh ccf was special until i moved out. the ccf everywhere else's different and they use this kinda sweet brown sauce instead of the mushroom sauce and red paste one we have in ipoh. ) and later met up with aaron yappio who came half an hour late -.- but nevermind, at least he paid for the Starbucks! xp and then had lunch with mom in Kampai - Jap food. yummy. ^^ and then off to JJ with bro, got a pair of green heels! wee >< And I spent a lot that day. Bro didn't even bring his wallet -.- and I paid for everything. It seems like it's a norm for the younger sibling to not bring $$ with them when the elder one's around. jeez...

# For Saturday and Sunday, I can't really remember what I did. All I know is that i ate lots and lots and lots of food. ( I'm so gonna go lift some weights after i finish this post! ;D )

# Still searching for an apartment....

# Still looking for a church to settle down in here in pj....

# Still wondering which uni to go to next year or the year after next.....

# Still trying to do my quiet time every day without miss.

# Still trying to put God's will above my own desires.

# Still trying to accept and overcome one weakness at a time, with God's strength.

# Not many classes for this week. Finals in two weeks' time. And rite, everytime I open a book to try to read, there's this nagging voice inside my head saying ,"Still got time....." Haissh.

# And to Jiang May, how am i surviving in HELP you ask? I'm not just surviving. pretty much enjoying it here actually. :) minus the flaws here and there, it isn't as bad as many said it is. but of course, standard-wise and facilities-wise,i think i'll just choose not to compare with taylor's. ;)

We're created with a freewill.
Freewill - the freedom to choose,
to make our own choices.
So when something happens,
this also means,
it's our responsibility.
Sometimes, I think we blame God too easily.

till then! i'll insert some pics next time!:)
HAVE A NICE DAY!

Taggy - my kind of boy

2009-08-19T20:39:00.006+08:00

Now, here's what you're supposed to do. Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here in facebook to answer this. Then see what happens.

If you're a guy- post this as my kind of girl..
If you're a girl- post it as my kind of boy..

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Nah, I don't need him to be good looking. I probably want that plus point. but I'm fine with or without it though. not important. :)

2. Smart?
Not dumb.

3. Preferred age?
never liked younger guys. too childish. :P a year or two older would be ideal. but it actually all depends on his maturity level lar...

4. Preferred height?
172.573cm. hahaha nah whatever idc.

5. How about sense of humor?
a funny guy is definitely attractive! ;)

6. How about piercings?
NO.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
DUH~! who would want one who loves you only when you're who he wants you to be and not who you truly are?

8. Pink hair?
"goodbye boy! get back to your gay mates!"

9. Mushy or no?
in moderation, yes. :)

10. Thin or fat?
not too thin not too fat. but gluttons are definitely a big no-no. ;D

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
-.- aren't we all brown in colour? except for ang-mohs and africans of course.

12. Long hair or short hair?
Short.

13. Plastic or metal?
*???*

14. Smells good?
I don't think there's any guy in this world that actually smells good. :p

15. Smoker?
DEFINITELY it's a NO.

16. Drinker?
NO.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
A down-to-earth type would be good. :)

18. Musically inclined?
plus point! ;D

19. Plays piano?
hmm......it'd be nice if he knows enough just to play me a song though. ;) weeeee......*dreaming........^^*

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Prefer acoustic guitar.

21. Plays violin?
I've always thought that guys who play the violin are being very gay. hahaha no offense to any of you who play though, just a stereotype xp

22. Sings very good?
Some are born not-very-good-singers so it wouldn't be fair rite? But of course I'd prefer one who can! :D and how nice rite if he can sing me a song in a tux, on his knees, on the stage, looking me in the eyes, on my wedding day....just for me..........probably a song like "My Wish - by Rascall Flatts" hahahhahahha..............

23. Vain?
Confident.

24. With glasses?
Doesn't matter. But since these are 'which do you prefer' questions, i'd say preferably no. :p

25. With braces?
whatever.

26. Shy type?
no. 'cos since i'm a lil shy and if he's shy, we'll both shy shy together. hahaha. would prefer a more extrovert one so that we can complement each other. hahaha. ;D

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
neither. would want one who stands his ground.

28. Active or passive?
Hmm...not passive. Definitely want one whom I can communicate with, one whom I'll tell everything and vice versa.

29. Tight or bomb?
*???*

30. Singer or dancer?
Chef. :p

31. Stunner?
Stunning personality and character.

32. Hiphop?
wtv.

33. Earrings?
NO.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-un

til-you-drop?
NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

35. Dimples?
Yeap! I always liked seeing dimples on guys. hahaha

36. Bookworm?
In moderation.

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
Oooh yeap yeap!! But of course write to me only lar. :p

38. Playful?
In moderation. Not too serious not too playful :)

39. Flirt?
NO. not even to me. fyi, 'sugardaddy's aren't attractive.

40. Poem writer?
wtv.

41. Serious?
In moderation.

42. Campus crush?
*???*

43. Painter?
I don't think there are actually many painter guys out there....

44. Religious?
Won't phrase it as religious. I would say one who loves God and loves me. These are the two most important and compulsory criterias. hahaha. It's impossible for two people who are together who don't share the same VIP in life. God is my VIP :)

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
Tease in a joking way is fine.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
An Irene freak! wahaha

47. Speaks 20 languages?
Speaks my 20 love languages. :)

48. Loyal or faithful?
Aren't those two the same?

49. Good kisser?
Doesn't matter. As long as he doesn't bite.literally.hahaha

50. Loves children?
Yeah why not?

Ps : these are just preferences, except for some compulsory characteristics. hahaha. it's been ages since i last did a tag and this was in fact pretty fun doing so.........

I tag everyone! :p
Have a nice day!

There's power in worship

2009-08-15T01:45:00.002+08:00

Throughout the whole week, my mind was actually in a mess. My mind felt so distracted, even up till dinner today. and it felt like there were so many things jumbled up in my head. Anyway, i went for a worship session in glad tidings pj with a bunch of friends just now. And truly truly, there's power in worship. After having a really awesome time worshipping God in His presence, the mind's un-tangled. everything seems so clear now. :) u don't understand why? neither do i. all i know is that i sense his peace which surpasses all understanding. Anyhoo, you don't have to fully understand something to believe it. do you fully understand why there's oxygen in the air? do you fully understand what is oxygen? do you fully understand why it never runs out? do you fully understand why we can only live on oxygen and not other gases? you can't see it, can't touch it, you only know its effect on you. so i can safely conclude that oxygen is pretty much a vague thing to you and you do not fully understand it. then why do you breathe?

-out.

have a great weekend!:)

Stuffs

2009-08-13T17:30:00.006+08:00

This always happens. I'd be thinking of a whole bunch of stuffs to blog about (especially when i'm allll alllloooonnnnneeee in the bus and lrt @.@) and at that time the lrt of thoughts just won't stop (let's modernize those old english phrases shall we? ;D ) But rite, when i sit my butt in front of my lappie and sign in to blogger and start typing, nothing comes out. -.-

*thinking hard*

*thinking harder*

*thinking real hard with both eyes tightly shut*

Ah forget it. I'll just type whatever pops into my mind. Hmm...University life's been pretty hectic lately I would say. the assignments just won't stop. -.- finish one, rejoice and chillax for a few days and start working like crap for the next one, and the vicious cycle continues.............

Lately, especially when I'm doing the assignments, it really reminds of the SAM days. we used to call it the Self-Abusing-Matriculation but now, I think university ain't any better lor. Still lots of assignments but maybe just a teeny bit better than SAM. At least not too many at one time. I still remember having presentations and quiz and assignments all in a week. Oh the hectic days!

But actually right, to think of it, university ain't that hard actually. It's my poorer-than-third-world-country time management that's causing all these unnecessary stress. Nothing gets done except in the elevent hour. I think I've been complaining about this stubborn sticky habbit of mine ever since...forever! *sighs* change irene change! I guess i really seriously do have to change. musn't take God's grace for granted. But i do admit one thing, though i do last minute work, i certainly don't do 'cincai' work. But nonetheless, I've always felt that the outcome would be much better if i had just started a lil earlier.

By the way, one habit still here BUT another habit is gone! I can proudly say that

I DO NOT GO LATE FOR CLASSES ANYMORE!
(errr....at least not as often as last year!! quite an achievement OK :P)

During SAM last year, I was late for classes almost every day. Class starts at 8am and I usually get up from bed at 7.50am or sometimes even at 8 sharp and then rushrushrush and run to class. And i still remember having to climb those stairs every morning man! And usually, the first word that I greet my teachers every morning is "Sorry", followed by that *apolegetic smile*. To my SAM mates : Now hor, I get to class early d leh. Proud of me or not? Haha.

By the way, results for my mid-semester test was out last week! AND GOD DID IT AGAIN! ;) I am so so amazed by His grace which I don't deserve. Grace is real. Grace exists. I am not trying to be humble to give him all the glory and give God all the credit 'cos I know what my efforts deserve. And those results, I did not deserve. But nonetheless, I'm not gonna take His grace for granted and I'll start putting in more effort 'cos in everything, we should do it unto God and do our best. when we do our best, He'll take care of the rest. And sometimes when I wonder, how about times when the results aren't as good as what we expected? I don't know the exact answer but one thing I know for sure, who are we to question God? He knows best and no doubt, He knows the hearts of men. He knows whether or not we were really trying our best, whether or not we were really trusting Him or were we doubting His ability to help us. There're many things that's beyond our understanding. And that's when trust comes in.

And recently, God has really spoken to me, on this particular issue. [sorry, i can't elaborate more on the issue here. it's after all a PUBLIC blog ;) ] He spoke to me through this chapter of the bible and it was so clear I couldn't deny that it was God. I couldn't say that it was my own conscience. And how foolish I was to think that "Hmmm...why haven't I been hearing from God lately? " I was wrong. He constantly wants to speak to us. It's just me, who was too ~~busy~~ lazy, proud and distracted to listen to him, thinking that I can live this life on my own, things are under control, I'm far from feeling like breaking down. But no, I need God. I always need Him. I need His grace which is new every morning, I need his guidance, His wisdom, His strength, His love. His fatherly love. Who wouldn't wanna feel like a VIP (Very.Important.Princess-or-Prince) ? You know, to God, we are super VIPs. :)

One thing though, just a reminder to you and myself, when things go wrong or seems wrong, don't be quick to point the finger at God, don't blame Him. For we do not see the bigger clearer picture that He sees. The bigger plan. The bigger purpose. Though many things, we may not understand, let's just trust in Him and know that he has our best in mind. 'Cos after all, no one loves us more than God does.

Think of Job. He did not blame God. He did not lose faith. He lost his whole family man. His wholllleee family, all that he ever owned, all whom he ever loved.
(click here to read more on Job)

For what good is it to gain the whole world, but lose your soul?

Our most valuable thing is our faith, not our health, not our wealth.
And that's the thing that the satan wants to steal from us, by all means.
So guard it. Keep a close relationship with God, listen to His voice daily, read His word and fight a good battle every day. Just some encouragement/reminder to you and me. ;)

And lastly, a picture so that you guys don't forget how i look like :P

When this heart grows cold, He never fails to amaze me time and time again.

Highlight of the day

2009-08-05T19:54:00.006+08:00

Went for a jog with my lil cousins & you know, since young, I thought I could never climb a monkey bar, but I actually did it successfully today!! weeeee.......

but i banged my knee into the pole...

-.-

and now it dang hurts. -.-
and i'm limping. -.-

do you have a purpose worth living for?
i know i do. :)

The builder, the bulldozer; words.

2009-07-30T22:26:00.011+08:00

Woohoo! I'm looking at oh-so-many tabs here, all articles related to my econs assignment and here I am, blogging, the last thing that I should be doing right now. But inspiration striked! so blog I shall! plus I've been losing my touch lately.

How many of you guys have been really hurt by things that others said? I know I have. and the closer they are to me, the dearer they are to me, the deeper it hurts. A very good example would be parents. oh and really close buddies or that special someone. And an even exact and accurate example would be asian parents or chinese parents. I'm sure we all know that they aren't exactly the most encouraging and positive group of parents in the world. Recently, I thought a lot on the power of words, how they can affect an individual to such a great extend. I know this topic is no alien to you guys, i still remember those crappy peribahasas in primary school last time.

The power of words; how they can build and encourage a person so much, how it injects that fuel of confidence and at the same time, it's so powerful to the extend that it can make a person feel like he's nothing but a failure all his life.

So people people people, use your words wisely. :) think before you speak.

There have been many times when I've said things which I didn't really mean and without realising it, I think I've hurt the other person or I've said things which would have been better left unspoken. I tend to crap and talk and shoot the first thing which comes to mind and suddenly oops! note to self : irene!!.....chin!!.... wthcrap was dat??! oh-oh *awkward moment* i said something wrong.

Proverbs 18:21
The tongue has the power of life and death,
and those who love it will eat its fruit.
Proverbs 21:23
He who guards his mouth and his tongue
keeps himself from calamity.
Psalm 64:3
They sharpen their tongues like swords
and aim their words like deadly arrows.
Proverbs 15:4
The tongue that brings healing is a tree of life,
but a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit.
Proverbs 10:19
When words are many, sin is not absent,
but he who holds his tongue is wise.

So let's edify one another and speak words of encouragement, or let's communicate with constructive critisms, don't critisize for the sake of criticizing, or just to make yourself feel better by making others feel bad about themselves or to make others feel intimidated, so UNCOOL okayy. this serves as a reminder to myself too.

it might mean nothing to you, but it might mean the world to someone else

Oh and this reminds me of a kiddy song I used to listen to when I was young,
"if you can't say anything nice, then just shussshhh"

Words, though simple, can lift a person up even without you realising it.

So let's not be stingy with our praises.

And this was the thing which inspired me to write this post, honestly, when I saw this in angel's blog,(a friend of mine from Taylor's) i was smiling like a baboon, come on, I'm sure you'd be happy too to read something like this. We're social beings, it's a fact. It feels nice, it feels great to have great human relationships and it's satisfying to know that you've made a difference in at least 1 person's life. :)

Irene : D most friendly girl in our class i shall say. D one who will tell u dat 'everything will be alrite' when bad things happened. D one who believes in God. D one who will listen to ur problems and comfort u. D one who will still keep in touch with u tho college life is over. Really glad to know her!

THANKS ANGEL PHUAH!!. YOU REALLY MADE MY DAY BAYBEH! :D

quick to listen, slow to speak...
HAVE A NICE DAY! :D

note: sorry for the weird structure or flow of the post 'cos it was typed in a rush. I reread it and it doesn't flow but I hope you guys get the point. :)

On a lazy morning, when there's just so many things I wanna do to make my day feel worth-while

2009-07-24T11:21:00.003+08:00

and when I'm beaten down by the thought that oh, maybe this'll be just another unproductive day, and I read this..

When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say, God, if I don't get anything else done today, I want to know You more and love You better...God didn't put me on earth just to fulfil a to-do list. He's more interested in what I am than what I do. That's why we're called human beings, not human doings." - Rick Warren

A lil update

2009-07-24T00:51:00.005+08:00

Actually, the sole reason for this post is because the previous post was way too lame and i don't want first time visitors to think that the blogger is nothing but a walking lame gal. walking and lame. haha catch the irony? haha ok i'm crapping. way too exhausted. i need rest. lots and lots and lottsssss of it. will give a proper update tomorrow! till then ;)

:0) verse of the day:

"Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete." John 16:24

It's really true that sometimes, we don't receive just because we did not ask.
"Ask and you will receive."
:)

God is good. All the time! :)
have a nice day!

Hello blog

2009-07-20T18:14:00.004+08:00

How're you doing?
You look pretty today. errr everyday. Not like you can change unless I do it for you.
Yea...long time since I talked to you,
like really talking talking.
Yea it's been ages since I did that.
Yea.
Yea...you agree it's a lil awkward too isn't it?
Yea...too long never talk d that's why....hmmm.....So how's life?
Errr....yea we got some ice to break.
And some rapport to build.
Oh you were asking how am I doing lately?
Oh I'm doing fine dear. yea. err...so you taken your dinner? Oh sorry, you don't eat. err yea.
Yea this is getting awkward.
*clears throat*
But hey blog, just so you know, I didn't mean to abandon you and sorry for not keeping you updated bout myself.
Oh blog, I really wasn't trying to keep you out of my life. And I know, it's been long since I told you stories.
And thanks anyway for letting me use you as a messenger to wish my loved ones 'happy birthday.'
That's the only thing I've been using you for recently.
Err..no not using, I mean asking for your help err...yea whatever.
So we're good? Friends?
OK....so come gimme a hug!
*hugs laptop screen*
Ok we're good! And sorry bloggie, I think I'll meet you some other time. Gotta run now! I promise there'll be more stories the next time k? And no more just two updates for the whole month ok?
*hugs laptop screen again*
Love ya bloggie!
Muaahhs!!!

It's been quite a while now since Mr. Moodswing last attacked.
I don't like feeling down, feeling blue, feeling emo.
And that's exactly what I've felt this whole day.
Gahh...Go away.........

Oiii! Nah! For you!

2009-07-12T00:25:00.009+08:00

Nick @ Woiii!! @ Mr. Kokino @ Nicolas Chin Min Shen!!!!! @ spoiled brat (u noe i dun mean it. err ok maybe sometimes i do :p) @ smarty pants @ my one and only brother,

Things would never be the same without you.
You're such a blessing to me & to this family.
Love you so much!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
May God continue to do His wonders in your life.
ps: aherm, so anggap this post as present la k? dun need buy d ok? muahhs!
xD

love,
jie jie

we hear it so often that we sometimes forget

2009-06-30T20:26:00.005+08:00

Read this real s.l.o.o.o.w.w.w.w.l.l.l.l.l.y.y.y. and let the truth sink in deep. :)

God loves you sooo much that there is nothing you or anyone can do to make Him love you any lesser. You are NEVER alone.

God's love is real.

You gotta experience it to believe it.

HAVE A NICE DAY

A gentle reminder

2009-06-28T16:03:00.004+08:00

To all ~~potential jerks~~ guys out there;

Girls are individuals, not tools which you can just use to satisfy your own needs of emotional attachment.

Our feelings, don't play with them.

Yes, we have feelings.

FIRST BIRTHDAY POST

2009-06-27T17:11:00.005+08:00

This is the first ever post in my blog, dedicated to someone's birthday!

* before moving on, let's take some time to embrace this historical moment*
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OK, let's move on ;)

And my dear dearrrr friend,
it's for

YOU
YOU

YOU

YOU!!

EUNICE LEE YI WAH!,
thanks for being the great friend that you are! And I'm really thanking God from the bottommm of my heart that you were born!
:)

*Was thinking of cutting off jane's face but that'll be mean. shhh...don't tell her! :p*

Ps: I wanted to post this on that day itself but I had some problem with the internet. But better late than never la hor? haha. LOVE YOU MY PRECIOUS SIS IN CHRIST!!

and for the last time this year, happy birthday! hehe

Let it fade

2009-06-19T23:47:00.004+08:00

Yo peeps! I know I've not been updating lately. And I've got lotsa updates & news for you all actually. Lotsa things been happening, both good and bad. I'll talk bout them in the next post. :)

Before hopping to another blog, do check this video out! It's an awesome song that I really connected to. :)

Oh and one thing I realised lately, you know as I grow up, grow older, what seemed to matter A LOT when I was younger, be it even a year ago, doesn't matter that much anymore. Haha

Oh and according to my blog description, 'If life were a story, I'd say that constantly, a chapter closes and a new one opens, yadayadayayda...', my current chapter's named 'Acceptance'. I feel that God is teaching me to accept myself for who I am and more importantly He's teaching me to accept others for who they are, no matter how different they are from me, no matter what 'clique' they're in, or whatever status quo crap.

I realise I haven't been really truly accepting others in the past. A few incidences happened which really made me think through about it. How do I love someone if I don't accept him/her for who he/she is in the first place?

But accepting doesn't necessarily mean that you agree with everything the person says or does, nor does it mean that you accept that what the person does is right although it's wrong.

I think accepting someone just means that you don't reject the person or build a wall just because he ain't perfect 'cos come to think of it, no one is, not myself, not anyone except God.
Acceptance is when you love the other person for who he/she is.

Was supposed to be a short post actually but ended up so long. haha. And the whole post like had such a serious tone. haha. So here's a lame joke!

There were 3 koala bears on a tree.

The first one jumped down. Why?

(Answer : Because he felt like it.)

Then, the second one jumped down. Why?

(Because of peer pressure, you jump, i jump!)

Then the third one jumped down. Why?

(Because he thought that they were playing a game!)

Then the tree fell down. Why?

...

(Because.....

the tree thought that it was a koala bear!)

OK, you can stop giving the =.= look. Lame jokes ought to be lame ok?

Till then!

Have a nice day!

My Rhyming Desires

2009-05-30T00:47:00.001+08:00

I want to judge others lesser,
I want to be friendlier,
Regardless of whoever.
I want to be bolder,
To be braver.
I want to love him like he's my brother,
And to love her like she's my sister,
I want my brain to react faster,
I want to sing and play the guitar better,
I want more of Him, and me, lesser,
And whatever goal I'm after,
May it to please Him and not others.
I want to serve God in more areas,
I want to be able to handle my fears better,
I want my heart and my thoughts to be purer,
And my love more sincere,
And so I have to first ask and say a prayer,
Cos I know He'll answer,
And then I'll have to obey and surrender,
To the hands of the potter.

And now I'm off to empty my bladder,
Yours truly.
:p

Dear Diary,

2009-05-29T02:31:00.002+08:00

Day 1 - Mon 25/05

Dear diary, I arrived in KL today and since I haven't found a place to call 'home away from home' to rest my head, I'll have to stay in my aunt's house in Pj for a month. They were really welcoming and my cousins were super warm, making me feel oh so nice. And the two older brothers were lol funny. We spent the night crapping extreemeely lame jokes. And I'm sharing room with the 12 year old princess of the house. It was way better than I expected. Instead of me telling her, she's the one telling me bedtime stories. "I've got this classmate, Girl A, she always bully me wan.........and there's this boy, his name is Boy A, he's got red braces!.........and then Boy B lives in.........and Girl B........and on and on and on. I think by the end of the month, I would know her whole class already! All in all, it was a nice day. Yes, things were not as bad as i expected it to be. Thank God. And I slept with a smile on my face, staying positive of what lies ahead.

Day 2 - Tues 26/05

Dear darling diary, I went to subang for breakfast today. wanted to have those yummy uncle seng noodles but kedai tutup so had that famous pork noodles instead. Then went to maybank to get meself my debit card. Yays! swipe swipe swipe! :) And then off to take the lrt with my dad, just to try so that I won't get lost when I take it on my own next time. Oh and diary, do you know? My aunt's house is super near the Kelana Jaya Lrt station and so it's super convenient to go anywhere i want to! Yay! So I alight at Bangsar and took a bus to Help. And waiting for the bus took 30 frigging minutes. And it was I think a frigging 40 degree celcius that time.

Nevertheless, I was trying to stay positive and I tried being excited bout this, this new life, this new change and all. And so the happy Irene with her high spirits arrived at the Wisma KPD of Help College (the business department) and when she saw the building, plop! her heart just fell. wathecacatness! cacat. one word is enough to describe that place. c.a.c.a.t. x( it didn't look like a college at all. Like some old abandoned shopping mall. Ok nevermind, I still had a teeny bit of positive spirit in me, I kept telling myself, nevermind outside look bad maybe the classes and all look good leh....And I kep telling myself that all the way in the bus until I reached the Main Help building. I took the free shuttle bus. It takes about 15 minutes. Not too bad lar. And when I reached there, I saw the ample variety of fast food and mamak stalls. But NO, that did not make me feel better because those are the only things they've got! NO chinese food! ONLY MAMAK AND FAST FOOD! waaaa....no wonder my cousin literally jumped for joy when he found pork nearby. He's taking foundation in Help by the way.

And later I bumped into an ex-schoolmate and more bad news. Hostels don't allow you to cook whatsoever. D= nothing but mc d and kfc and mamak food for 3 meals of my approx. 365 days there?!? NO WAY man! And more bad news, there're not many houses nearby for me to rent. And not forgetting that they are uber expensive! I wasn't feeling too good after that short visit to Help but I'm still hoping that things will get better as time passes. And I really hope the orientation on Wednesday goes well and that I'll be able to make a bunch of great friends there.

Anyways, Day 2 had a kinda good ending. Since I've got nothing to do tomorrow and since I had no plans (since most of my friends are either being busy with their assignments or having exams), so I decided to go to my other uncle's house at the far end of S'gor. Near Zoo Negara. And for the first time, I took the Lrt on my own! *patsownshoulder* haha. I took from Kelana Jaya to Wangsa Maju. It's at the farr end of the lrt line and so it took me 45 minutes to get there.

And here I am, in his house, with my two uber cute cousins, ( you know after dinner my 9 year old cousin washed the dishes with me and he said this, "Irene Cheche, you know in school hor, there was this boy who wanted to disturb MY GIRL lar and I went to him and say ' Oi what you doing?! Don't disturb her ar or else I punch your stomach!!' " ROFL) And I spent time with my grandparents. It was nice and warm. Oh dear diary, I wonder how Day 3 would be!

Day 3 - Wed 27/05

Dear diary, my orientation began today. And I started my day with a very lovely message from a friend, "Starting class huh? No need scared ya. Don forget God has not given you a spirit of timidity but one of sound mind. Tc." It truly spoke right to my heart. But I wasn't scared actually, a lil nervous maybe. I didn't know what to expect. My aunt took the LDP road that day and it was dangdangdang jam! I arrived late, on my first day some more! But they were many later than me! Oh wells, itulah dipanggil malaysians! We had our campus tour. I mentioned yesterday that the buildings looked really horrible rite? And I, being one who places good architecture as one of the main criterias of a good university, can say that oklah...Help pass. The inside is way better than the outside. Although still not as good as Taylor's, it's still boleh tahanlar. I was all alone, I didn't know a single person. So, trying to be friendly, I tried smiling at anyone I had eye contact with. And not bad actually, made around 5 new friends that day. They're really nice people. Most of them speak Mandarin though and a majority of them are from Form 6 and the HelpFoundation. And so I set myself a new mission for Day 4, to find some BANANAS!! like me.

After the orientation, I took a bus to One Utama with my cousin. And the Mega Sales is on! It was so tempting I tell you! And how I wished my mom was with me so that I didn't need to think twice, thrice when I wanted to buy something. I bought a black jacket from Elle though. 70% off wor. Must grab man! :) Wanted to buy some shoes too but I felt really bad for making my cousin wait. So we went to catch a movie instead. Was anti that movie all these while, Angels and Demons, but had the curiosity of just checking it out. Watching that movie really made me feel geram thru'out. what rubbish! And half truths are worst than sheer crap! Just really hope that when people watch this movie, they won't have a wrong perception and form an association btween Christianity and the Catholic religion 'cos it's TOTALLY DIFFERENT.

Day 4 - Thurs 28/05

Orientation's still on. Starts at 10 but I had to get up at 6.30! Cos my aunt'll drop me after she drops my younger cousins in school. And their school starts at 7.30 =.=. So reached college at 7.45. Unlike Taylor's, the public area's kinda empty. Everyone's in class I guess. So I just sat there, got my headphones out and read the mobile-bible I had in my phone. Thank goodness I had that or else I'll be rotting in boredom. It was nice. It was quiet and it was I think one of the first few times me having my quiet time in a place other than my bedroom. Spending some time with God was surely a great kick-start to a great day.

Oh and while listening to songs, I actually slept there, on the table. ( oh diary, i sure hoped i didn't drool! ) And at 9, I went to get my exemption letter for LAN. hahaha. no msian studies whatever crap for me! wakaka. And then met up with Kevin! My ex-classmate from my Psychology class in SAM! It was nice meeting up with him after soo long. He gave me a second campus tour, for the benefit of my poor skills in recognizing places.

And after that was the usual orientation stuffs, yadayadayada. Oh and I made more new friends today! Great and nice people but they also speak Mandarin! But they were nice enough to converse in English, even amongst themselves, for my sake. I felt like a very troublesome banana.

And today, there was great news! for my accomodation! A JB girl whom I just met told me that one of her housemates is leaving in June! And she's staying near Tropicana Living, 10 minutes drive away. The condition of the apartment's great! And they allow us to cook there and the rental's cheap too! 250 to 300 a month! Help's Hostel cost 550! So it's really reasonable. but the only thing is that it's very far away but that won't be a problem 'cos I can always take the bus. Plus it's only a walking distance from the Tropicana Living shopping mall! :D And she's a really nice girl. God sure provides eh? After I confirm with her, then I need not worry bout my accomodation anymore! And the best thing is that I can cook there! Which will really save me a bomb! Which reminds me of how God provided for me on Tuesday. I was at my uncle's house near the Zoo Negara and I had to take a taxi to the Wangsa Maju LRT station to get back to Kelana Jaya. My uncle was at work so he couldn't fetch. It was raining and there were no taxis around and I'm not a very huge fan of taxis in the first place. We all know that it's not exactly safe, especially in our 'dear' Kuala Lumpur! So I waited at the road side with an umbrella for quite some time and suddenly a car stopped by and it was my 9-year-old-cousin's friend's mom! And she offerred to fetch me to the LRT station. And it wasn't near I tell you! But she insisted and so I followed her. Truly truly truly God provides man! At that very right time.

Oh and Day 4 ended in Ipoh! :D 'cos since I've got no classes on Friday, I took the 5.30pm bus back to Ipoh today! And now I'm typing this in the comfort of my sweet ol bedroom. Week 1 was awesome and Week 2 will be better! :)

my longest post so far.
*yawns*
-out